College

To answer my own question in the title of this blog, I have no idea. So if you are here searching for the answers, this is not the place. However, if you are with me on the same level, and want to meet me half way, we should first define what our questions are. I think that is we are going to try to get to the place where we can answer our questions; we need to think of them first.

So college, yes, it is no doubt that it is in the front (or back) of all high schoolers minds. Our lives are obsessed and addicted to it. It is all some of us think about. I worry almost everyday about it. College, the time after high school. Do my grades exactly correlate what college I can get into? And better yet, does whatever college I get into define my income job right after college, and then so if A=B and B=C does my grades and ACT score define the REST OF MY ENTIRE LIFE? But then I just keep being anxious. That is what they tell us. They tell us getting into college is important. They say to have a safety school. And they are warping our minds to tell us without a good college degree we are only setting ourselves up for failure. Maybe they are a little modest and saying they are not trying to warp our brains. Yet still, everyday they tell me high school is only important because afterwards it determines what college you go to.

But then that brings up the question of what college is right for me. Do I want to find a balance of 50% fun 50% academics? Or do I want to discipline myself into 100% and no play? yet, that makes me a dull boy. I need to find the perfect balance of college. I have no idea what that perfect balance is, but I think the only way to find it is through trial and error.

So I got what I am going to do there, now where am I going to go? What if I don't get into the one that I think is perfect for me? Holy crap, I don't even know which one is perfect for me! The common thoughts about a small school: all they do is study, and I might be missing out on the (quote unquote) college experience. Yet, if I go to a typical big school, I don't want to get lost. (Not physically, I mean mentally). Personally, I have always been able to deal and find my way in unfamiliar circumstances, so I don't think it will be a huge problem. But what if it is? I don't know!

College. It is important. That is what they tell us, and I have been brainwashed into believing them. It is current preoccupying my life indirectly, and soon it will directly. That is why I am nervous about it. But honestly, I think I need to just go with the flow and accept what comes my way.



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